Please just humor me while I express my feelings about how I would hope LOVE IS in my relationship to be😏

LOVE should feel freeing, you shouldn’t feel stuck or jailed. Nothing like being in love with someone that you can trust and vice versa.

Now this is me talking to my significant other… I WANT YOU TO FEEL FREE BABY, BE HONEST, RESPECT ME AND REMEMBER WHO YOU BELONG TOO😘❤️💜❤️

When you feel that things aren’t going your way, remember that a plane doesn’t go with the wind, it goes against it💪🏽

This year starting January 1 has been a roller coaster needless to say. Son going off to college, mother in law(mom) in hospital, good friend(family) in hospital oh and starting talks of divorce. Mother in law and good friend pass away within weeks of each other.

Two of the most loving giving caring women I’ll ever meet. I miss them everyday. You never know how long you have with the people you have in your life that means and plays an integral part in your life. HOLD ON to them.

Now divorce proceedings will be taking place soon. All I can do from this moment and continue to do is HOLD ON. No matter how hard my tears may flow, my life becomes a whirlwind and the storms come. I have to and choose to HOLD ON..

When I think about love, it is a powerful act. When someone has hurt you, you have the ability to turn away or show that action of love and forgive them. When you have an argument with your significant other words are said that may hurt. Voices may not be heard. Sometimes even after apologies have been said you walk away still feeling something.

But love will cause you to act and display trust, forgiveness and knowing no matter what everything will be ok.

Facts…❤️❤️

You ever wonder what’s going to happen next?Who did it? What’s on the next page when you’re starting a new chapter in a book? That’s how my life is right now. I’ve had all those questions RINGING in my head so much lately.

I’ve wondered am I ready. Do I have enough time to have a fresh chapter to start at this point in my life? I’ve come to realize that I’m right on time for my next chapter.

All the prior chapters prepared me for this moment. Even though this is a page I’ve never seen before I need to trust the process and say to myself “I’M READY”

Are You??

So today is my birthday. So thankful that God blessed me to see another year. When I sit back and think, man I’m 46 and the things that I’ve accomplished brings joy to my heart. For the things that I haven’t I’m going after each one😊

This past year has been a trip literally, but I’ll soak it all in. Never thought in a million years that I would be getting a divorce, selling a house, practically starting all over again. But I’m so ready to start the next chapter of this journey of mine.

So I say with all intent… Hello 46, cheers🥂

A picture frame, a vase, you’re favorite pair of sun glasses, a dating relationship, a marriage bell even life. When those things break, end,!or spiral out of control.

They feel like delicate pieces of glass shattering and you always try to find all the pieces to mend them back.

But certain things, not all, fall apart so that better things can fall together. Take a moment and think about that😏

I’m promising myself on this day to be so strong that nothing and I mean nothing can or will disturb my peace of mind💪🏽💪🏽

I am learning to love myself all over again. I would say a year before the pandemic and during I struggled to just look at myself in the mirror. Wondering who is this women staring back at me and where did the other woman go?

The woman that was confident, secure, gracious, loving, and forgiving. I just was not myself. Until recently I discovered who I am and what I am again. That woman is back! It took me a moment to find her, but she was always there. I will no longer look down on myself, lack confidence but stand tall(even though I’m 5”2”)😂

I also learned in this journey, that I will no longer spend it with people/or a person that doesn’t know how to love me the way I need to be loved. I deserve to shine as the brightest light and be happy.

So I say to myself SHINE GIRL I GOT YOU✨✨✨

I used to think thunder, lightning, and strong winds were scary. We are taught to hide and shelter from them at times.

But what I’ve discovered is some storms come to clear a path to whatever your life journey takes you. So don’t hide, don’t shelter walk through that storm🌪💨🌬😊